Sunday, June 12, 2011

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 5

Day 5 - A song that reminds you of someone
It's been a couple days I know, but I guess there's nothing in the rules that say the 30 days have to be consecutive. So I maintain that I am not out of line here and will not be doing multiple days to catch up.

So nyah.

Anyways, on to Day 5. Any good song is going to have a lot of memories behind it, so there are a lot of these. Particularly when it comes to people we've lost. "Blue" reminds me of a lot of people that have died in my life, but I don't know if I would say that counts. It's not really the memories of the person so much as their death, so I'd say that disqualifies it.

I can't really pick a "winner" of this category in my humble opinion. I don't know that any song "reminds me" of a person more than another song. So here are just a few that remind me of various people:

You Can Call Me Al (Paul Simon) - Reminds me of my brother, Mark. Way back when I was a wee sprout, he declared that this was "our song" for some reason or another. I still to this day do not know why, but it's stuck with me all these years, so I think of him when I hear it.

After we watched the music video to this song, we went to Pizza Hut. Don't ask me how I remember that day. I just do.

Uprising (Muse) - This one reminds me of my friend Jake for reasons that are obvious to anyone should they know Jake. REVOLUTION.

In the Living Years (Mike and the Mechanics) - Again, for obvious reasons, this reminds me of my father. It's kind of indicative of how our relationship was, I think. I think dad and I were a lot more alike than we'd care to admit, and even though we "never saw eye to eye," I probably should have tried to be closer to him when he was still alive.

But I imagine these are typical regrets for most people. Hindsight and all that. I still think of him whenever I hear this song and though it reminds me of his death in some ways, I think more about our relationship during his life when I hear this song. So I'd say it counts.

Sky Chord (Tsuji Shion) - This one reminds me of another friend of mine who really likes this song. Since I heard it first thanks to her, I can't help but think of her whenever I hear it. Another similar song is Sayonara Solitia (Saeko Chiba).

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 4

Day 4: A song that makes you sad
Oh are there a lot of these. I do love a good sad song. Now, to be clear, there are many songs that make me cry--but for different reasons. Heck, "I Wanna Be," makes me cry sometimes, but just because of those aforementioned squishy feelings it makes me feel. Some songs, like Creek Mary's Blood (Nightwish)--the orchestral version, anyways--or the ending theme from Skies of Arcadia, which I maintain has the best ending of any song ever, make me cry because of the instrumentation. I get a little weepy at beautiful music.

But that's different from a song making me sad, of course. And there are still quite a few of these. As with my previous categories, I'm kind of limiting myself to songs that come to mind more or less immediately, and only one song hops right into my head:
This is another animé song, but this one's in English, so nothing should be lost in translation. Sadly, the above link does not have the lyrics (I simply could not find one that did), but it's pretty easy to get them. I won't spoil the ending to this absolutely excellent series (Cowboy Bebop...anyone who enjoys animé needs to watch this. It is sublimely awesome in so many ways), but this is the final song from the series. Obviously the symbolism is thick throughout the whole song, and you don't need to know how it ends to understand the metaphors for death, redemption, and even life. It is my opinion that you don't need to see or even know the animé to appreciate this song. But it may still be one of those internal, personal things about music that makes this song connect to me.

But even still. I play this song every time someone I know dies. It is sad and hopeful all at once. So maybe it doesn't deserve to win the "sad" song award...but it's kind of bittersweet, so I think it belongs here.

"Everything is clearer now. Life is just a dream, you know, that's never-ending. I'm ascending."
And remember: "no black and white in the blue."

Ok, now...if I had thought of this one first, I may have made it my winner. But I'm relegating it to runner up because Blue popped into my head first. Even still, this song is one of the most sorrowful songs I've ever heard--possibly because it followed one of the saddest endings to any movie/book ever (Lord of the Rings, of course).

It bears noting, however, that this song and Blue share some (many) similarities. Both are about death quite clearly, but they oppose songs like "In This River" (Black Label Society) and "Asleep" (The Smiths). Each of those songs seem to almost linger on the actual death, which makes them sad, but in "Blue" and "Into the West," Kanno and Lennox go beyond death into metaphors of freedom and ascension. Those of you who know me best know I am not a religious person and do not necessarily believe or disbelieve that there is something after death--but the bittersweet nature of these songs, the metaphor and poeticism of them--make them clear top choices. They just have so much more power, so much more weight, than a song that just lingers on the stagnation of death (though "Asleep" quite clearly uses sleep as a metaphor for death--and in fact suicide--it's just never had as much weight to me). That being said, I would have to give "In This River" and "Asleep" honorable mentions. It also bears noting that "Into the West" reminds me a lot of the ending of Dragons of Summer Flame (Dragonlance) when all the Companions were finally reunited. Yeah, if you're not a Dragonlance fan, you have no idea what I'm talking about. But it made the song doubly relevant to me.

Honorable Mentions: Tong hua (Guang Liang) - I think this is the name of the song. I've heard it called Fairy Tale. It's in Chinese, but I think it's pretty clear from watching the video what it's about. I heard/saw it the first time in Taiwan at karaoke and I cried. In front of my students without even knowing what the lyrics meant. It was kind of embarrassing.

"In This River" (Black Label Society)
"Asleep" (The Smiths)

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 3

Note: Starting today I figured out how to work the url command in blogspot, so just click on the song title to go to the youtube video of the song.

Day 3: A song that makes you happy
This is going to be an odd one. I'll list the winner first and then give an explanation, because a lot of you are going to listen to this song and just...scratch your head.
Listen to this song first, then read my description below.

Ok, so, assuming you listened to the song, I can probably imagine what you're thinking. "It's just screaming. There's nothing musical about it. This is a horrible song!" This was pretty much my first impression of it. "I Wanna Be" is the first ending/credits theme from an animé called Soul Eater (one of my favorites). The first time I heard it, I went out of my way to avoid the ending credits of the series. But after a few episodes, a miraculous thing started to happen...I started to listen to it more and more.

There is something primal about this song, even before you get to the lyrics and the translation (I didn't even look up the translation for months after I started listening to the song). It has always sounded somewhat affirming--even defiant--to me, like the singers are screaming at everything that is bad and unpleasant in life, everything that would hold them back and tell them "you can't do this" or "you're not good enough". I can't help but be uplifted. I always imagine the singers saying "we can't sing, but screw that, we're going to do it and have fun with it!" (I imagine they are better singers than this song would have us believe, of course).

This probably means little to you, dear reader, but isn't that sort of what music is? Something deeply personal and internal to each of us? I don't expect you to understand. But try and give the song another listen, keeping in mind my feelings on it and see if you think the same. Here, I'll even give you the translation (thank you, animelyrics.com).

Edit: Due to formatting issues, the best I can do is link the lyrics and their translation. Click here.

I don't expect to have converted anyone to liking this song, really. It's one of those quirky things unique to me, I imagine (well, I'm sure there's others in the world who like this song, but I doubt anyone I know would). But in the end, this is a song that makes me feel happy and uplifted and even optimistic. So I would be remiss to not give this day to it.

For those of you who didn't like my previous choice (which I imagine is all of you...and I don't hold it against you. It's an acquired taste), you can feel free to imagine this song as my "winner". This one's a bit more straight forward. It's a lot of the same emotions as "I Wanna Be," but a little less obscure, a little less bizzare, a little more musical, and a little less Japanese. It's pretty straight forward. Life is hard. I'm down on my luck. But damnit, someday things are going to be ok.

Monday, May 30, 2011

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 2

So here we go, day two of the 30-Day Song Challenge. Today's is relatively uninteresting:

Day 2: Your least favorite song
Ok, so...as with anyone, there are a lot of songs here that I could list. I can't really even think of many simply because I just don't listen to songs I don't like (funny how that works, in'it?). I could list a lot of artists I don't like (Bieber, Taylor Swift, Katy Perry...though even saying those artists, I can think of one or two of their songs I don't mind...well, except Bieber), but specific songs are elusive. One song always kind of stuck in my craw for a very specific reason, however, so I suppose I should give that one the award.
Winner: Follow Me (Uncle Kracker) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tg4np7GUcSw
I hate this song, but it's not so much the song as the message, glorifying adultery, unfaithfulness, and cheating on one's spouse. My hatred for it has cooled over the years, and I do have to admit, the melody is catchy (which is part of the reason I hated/hate it...I don't want to remember this song, but I just can't get it out of my head!), but since I remembered, to this day, how much I once loathed this song, I guess it better get the award for my least favorite.

That being said, I did have to stop the Youtube video from playing...I still don't want to listen to it...

Runner Up: None that I can think of.

It may seem odd that I can't think of songs that I hate, but as I said before, I simply don't listen to songs that I don't like. I don't listen to the radio much, and when I do, I simply change the station quickly if I know I do not like the song I'm listening to. That being said, I'm sure there are plenty--rap music especially--that I dislike. They just aren't coming to mind.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 1

It's been awhile since I've "blogged". I warned you (all, what, two of you?) that I don't do well witht hings I am expected to update regularly, but here's something I saw that I kind of liked. It's something I found on Facebook (see, something good /can/ come out of Facebook!) thanks to my Sister, Amber, "participating". It's called the 30-day Song Challenge.

Now, along with video games, I am kind of a music nut. I'm not into the "pretentious" indie scene or heavy metal or rap or classic rock or classical or anything like that--except to say that, in a way, I'm into all of that stuff. I enjoy all music and have a rather extensive collection that I have gathered throughout the years (most legally...some less so). So this challenge tweaked my interest just right since I have so many songs to choose from. Besides that, I enjoy using music to enhance my moods and emotions and that's pretty much exactly what this is.

So, before I begin, here are the "rules". If you want to do it yourself on Facebook or whatever, I'll list the days and their themes. Play along at home!

Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band that you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

I was going to do this all in one day just as a single blog...but it turned into quite an undertaking and I got hung up at about Day 5, so I suppose I should stick to the rules and do one day at a time. I guess I didn't stop to think how long a single blog with 30 days of music and commentary would be.

So, without further ado:

Day 1: Your favorite song
I don't really like that this is the very first day. Ask anyone this question and I'll bet 90% of the people asked won't be able to answer unless you allow them a couple of picks, so, as will become a common theme in this list, I will give a couple of my "favorite" songs. After all, this changes every year, week, and most days. Generally, how I judge my "favorite song" (and I do often think about what songs are my favorites) starts with songs I rarely, if ever, skip on my MP3 player (or change the station on the few times I listen to the radio). You'd be surprised at just how much this narrows the field down...

"Winners": Drive (The Cars) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yrKdDLhtvls and Everybody Wants to Rule the World (Tears for Fears) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R-O3kYrDPbI
Both of these songs are just viral to me. The melodies have been in my head for years and I just can't help singing along with them. Nothing in particular about either of these songs resonatewith me, emotionally or whatever, they're just the kinds of songs are stuck in my head for days (and, as mentioned above, I rarely skip on my MP3 player--in fact, I often seek them out).

"Runners Up" - Iris (Goo Goo Dolls) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IIYOzL3cp5k and Good Riddance (Green Day) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyLOkbW9yCI
I call these my "runners up" because, until fairly recently (this year or last year, I suppose), I would have called them both my favorite songs (don't ask why my "favorites" come in pairs...I don't know). All of the comments above are relevant to these as well, though I think the lyrics of these two songs are more resonant with me. Particularly "Good Riddance," it's just such a good song for endings, so to speak. I think they both fell out of my top spot, however, when people continued to use them all the damn time at graduations and what have you. They just got overdone.

Still, I do enjoy both songs. I just don't seek them out to listen to them so much anymore. In any case, they still deserve a spot in my "favorites" for how long they were, in fact, my favorites.

Honorable Mentions:
Livin' on a Prayer (Bon Jovi) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bXsmGSnq3lE
I Wanna Be (Stance Punks) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1_WYx0jKc-M (more on this one later)
King of Wishful Thinking (Go West) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtoaK9EUjto
Kimi no Shiranai Monogatari (Supercell?) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ONVd7nfKE3g

And these are just ones that came off the top of my head. Once again, my "favorite" song is prone to change at random. I am a whimsical guy. I may deign to inform you when it does...but I doubt it. It could be that I'm missing some just because I haven't gone through my extensive list of music...but it's my opinion that a person's "favorite" song should be one that they can rattle off without a great deal of thought.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Isn't every game an RPG?

I have been playing video games my entire life. This is not hyperbole. From a forgone Christmas in which I tore open the shiny wrapping of my very first Nintendo Entertainment system until today, I have spent far too many hours, dollars, and tears on video games...and I've loved every minute of it. This may not come as a surprise to any of you given my general source material for this blog, but my favorite genre of games is the majestic RPG (roleplaying game for those of you who are uninitiated into the video game lifestyle). However, over the years I have had my definition of this oft-misunderstood genre challenged time and time again. And here's why:

Back in the day, the pivotal, quintessential RPG was Final Fantasy (or Phantasy Star, depending on which system you patronized, Nintendo or Sega...I enjoyed both games, though I only owned a Nintendo). In Final Fantasy you had a staggering level of character customization: you chose your name and your character class. After that, you followed the journey of your highly customized, personalized avatars (each with four-letter names only...luckily Reid fit) as they traveled through the nameless world, fighting four elemental fiends (how exactly is a lich related to "earth"?) and recovering the four elemental crystals to save the world from Garland and his pimp, Chaos. Final Fantasy was meant to be the last game developed by Hironobu Sakaguchi, who believed that if it did not sell well, it would be his final game. Of course, it sold like hot cakes...as did its 13 sequels and multiple spinoffs, each less final than the one before.

It's safe to say that Final Fantasy is, in a way, one of the (though not the only) forbearers of the modern RPG and I have enjoyed most of them immensely. Even given the criticism I will level against them shortly, bear in mind that there has never been a Final Fantasy game that I did not enjoy on some level. I have not /loved/ them all, but I still believe the series is solid and has a lot to do with the early life of the RPG.

However, in continuing along with this series, after the first game (and possibly the second...I never played Final Fantasy 2, that is, Japan's Final Fantasy 2), you no longer had any sort of option in who you controlled in your game. That is to say, you were playing a pre-defined protagonist. In many of the game's sequels, you could rename your character, but you were always the same person following the same quest along the same rails. The stories were always engaging, but there was really no choice in how the story progressed--with the possible exception of how long you told the cosmic horror threatening to destroy the entire universe to wait while you played mindless, inane mini games and followed pointless sidequests for better weapons--most of which you didn't need. It was only recently that I started to wonder, then. When faced with this entry into the genre (and just about every JRPG, or Japanese Roleplaying Game, ever made, in fact), how exactly do we define what a roleplaying game is? What about Final Fantasy makes it an RPG?

As with any lexical dilemma, we should probably start with actually looking at the words we're trying to define: role playing game. In essence, this simply means that we are playing a role, controlling some entity and guiding them along their journey. Let's try it out and see how it gels with three RPGs on the market today:

* In Final Fantasy 10, you are "playing the role" of Tidus, a bratty sports star with daddy issues.

* In Mass Effect, you are "playing the role" of Shepherd, a commander in the military who is considered for and eventually admitted into an elite interstellar police force.

* In Fallout, you are "playing the role" of a refugee from a vault designed to save people inside from the nuclear holocaust.

So far, so good. All three of those games are, technically, roleplaying games by just about every website, magazine, or video game store who categorizes them. However, how about this:

* In Super Mario Brothers, you are "playing the role" of either Mario or Luigi as you venture through eight (or more) colorful worlds chasing after King Bowser to rescue the princess of the Mushroom Kingdom.

* In Halo, you are "playing the role" of a space marine called Master Chief in an epic conflict between humans and aliens called the Covenant.

* In Madden 2011, you are "playing the role" of the Minnesota Vikings (or any other football team) through an NFL season in an attempt to win the Super Bowl.

See what I did there? In just about every video game (with the possible exception of puzzle games like Tetris), you are technically "playing a role." In that way, roleplaying game is possibly the least informative and most unspecific genre title anyone could have thought of. If Final Fantasy is a roleplaying game because you are controlling a certain individual, or group of individuals, through an epic storyline--then almost every game out there is a roleplaying game, from Super Mario Brothers to Halo to Madden 2011. And I'm pretty sure no one, from the die hard roleplaying game fanatic to the frothing Halo fanatic, would agree to such a broad definition of "roleplaying game."

Allow me to make a rather controversial statement that has gotten me flamed somewhat in the past: Final Fantasy, and indeed most JRPGs, should not be called RPGs. Now, it seems to me like this isn't a particularly inflammatory statement. It isn't making a value judgment about the games (most of which, as I already said, I tend to enjoy)...it's simply calling for a better classification system for games of this nature. Just like how any difficult-to-classify game like Psychonauts (SHAMELESS PLUG: buy this game, it is amazing) becomes an Adventure game by virtue of being difficult to classify, it seems like any game with a modicum of choice (whether real or imagined) becomes immediately lumped together as an RPG. But there is a world of difference between a game like Final Fantasy (pick one...particularly relevant if you pick one of the latter ones) and a game like Dragons Age. Both have a sweeping, arcing story. Both have a system of character growth in which characters become stronger as they progress through the game. But these two things alone are not particularly rare in games today. Heck, Bioshock had an experience system in which characters grew as they progressed through the game. Borderlands had an experience system in which characters grew as they progressed through the game. How come these games are “first person shooters with RPG elements” and not RPGs? It seems like they'd classify as much as Final Fantasy and many of its JRPG ilk.

Perhaps I need to step back and allow for a redefinition of “roleplaying”. After all, if every game is a roleplaying game by virtue of the fact that you are, in fact, playing a role, then this is no classification system at all. Just call them all video games and be done with it. No, perhaps there is something significant to the role that must be defined.

Note: Everything from here on out is my opinion and is likely to be viewed as inflammatory to diehard Final Fantasy apologists. Let me again remind you that while I have fundamental problems with some of the design decisions made in recent Final Fantasy games, I cannot recall a single one, with the possible exception of Final Fantasy 8, that I disliked on any level. So this is not an argument made out of bias. It is simply me reflecting on an issue that has bothered me for some time.

Allow me to turn away from Final Fantasy for a moment and examine a game that I know, seemingly instinctively, to be a roleplaying game: Dragons Age: Origins. Now, I choose this game over its sequel, Dragons Age 2, because A) I have not played the sequel and B) I am somewhat opposed to some of the decisions they made in its design (I may elaborate on these later). Now, what sets Dragons Age apart from Final Fantasy is that you define the role you will be playing. By doing this, the game gives you direct control (in a way that is limited by the nature of video games, of course) over not only your character, but also key points in the narrative that truly allows you to customize, indeed personalize, the story. In Dragons Age, your character's origin defines certain aspects of how the action unfolds. Your decisions throughout the game continually change the direction the story goes. Of course, as I mentioned before, this is all constrained by it being a medium is controlled by the possible (unlike Dungeons and Dragons in which an actual human being is controlling the action—allowing just about anything to be possible). You can't, for instance, kill any major characters in the story (unless it's mandated by the plot), or take a break on the beach for a year and let the story unfold without you. But you can, within the confines of what has been defined by the programmers, choose your own path.

Now, compare this to Final Fantasy—any Final Fantasy, even my personal favorite, Final Fantasy 6, or my least favorite, Final Fantasy 8. In Final Fantasy, you are given the role of the protagonist, a character defined for you before the game starts. You are set along a pre-determined path, fight pre-determined battles, and watch as the character makes pre-determined decisions for you without any input from you. This makes for an interesting narrative, of course, but there is no choice. In this way—and I believe this is, it must be, key in defining a roleplaying game—you are not so much playing a role as you are controlling the action and watching the role, in the most fundamental ways, be played for you. This “controlling the action” is not the same kind of control you will find in Dragons Age, of course. Just like every game has you “playing a role” in the most fundamental way, every game also gives you control of the action. In Super Mario Brothers, Mario jumps when you push the A button (or whatever crazy way we make Mario jump on the Wii these days). In Halo, Master Chief fires his gun when you push a button (I don't even know which button it is, I'm proud to say). In Final Fantasy and Dragons Age, you make tactical decisions during combat in order to see the protagonists through the conflict safely. This is the actual gameplay and every game has it. What Final Fantasy and its ilk lack is the true thing that defines our ability to play a role: choice.

It seems, by this observation, that there are two things that truly define a roleplaying game, then: customization and choice. The less controversial of these two is choice. In a roleplaying game, you are given choice over how the game progresses in some way or another. This may range from minute aspects like your actions determining which paths open up later in the game, or may be substantial and profound like which characters live and die. The more controversial of these two aspects of roleplaying games is customization. In a roleplaying game, you are not just /given/ a role to play. You define the role. I hesitate to throw this out there because I know it is the vast minority of so-called RPGs that allow you to customize your character...but for reasons I mentioned above, I believe we must be a bit more picky and specific about games that wear this moniker, and a game that you have no control over the protagonists seems, in many ways, to be as much a “roleplaying game” as Halo and Super Mario Brothers. On the other hand, a game in which your definition of your character, which in some way significantly affects the storyline of the game, seems to be several steps closer to something significantly different...different in such a way that it wouldn't necessarily share a classification with aforementioned non-RPGs.

There is another potential aspect of RPGs that I have left out because it confounds the classification somewhat, and that is character growth—the time-tested experience point system. In RPGs, traditionally your character became stronger as you gained experience (and often experience levels). By doing this, they gained more abilities (often defined by their class), more hit points, more attributes, etc, etc. This system is older than video games, of course. Dungeons and Dragons used it in 1974 when it first launched, so it's nothing new. However, I get the feeling that this system of character growth (I call it growth and not customization because I believe that character customization is more an attribute of character creation than any experience level system) is actually what defines an RPG. I find this particular metric lacking in many ways, particularly because many, many games these days are touted as having “RPG elements,” which almost always manifest themselves as some kind of experience level system. Now, I don't have anything wrong with other genres working this sort of element into their game—and, in fact, encourage it because, as I mentioned in a previous blog entry, any sort of customization options we have in our protagonists will inherently personalize the experience for us and draw us into the game—but I feel like if it was the /only/ metric by which we define roleplaying games, then Bioshock, Borderlands, Alpha Protocol, etc, would be considered RPGs. And they're typically not. They are first person shooters “with RPG elements.” This leads me to believe that there /must/ be more to an RPG than this sort of character growth system. And besides that, I instinctively feel like there should be more to it than that. This, I feel, is where many of the Final Fantasy apologists and I will diverge paths and they will feel like this is enough for Final Fantasy and JRPGs to be classified as RPGs, and I feel like, in this, we will have to agree to disagree.

Actually, my problem with the general method of Final Fantasy character growth systems is it generally lacks that sort of personalized growth that I like to see in my RPGs. In fact, to wrangle this meandering pony back on track, it lacks /choice/, that thing I find pivotal to RPGs in general. In Final Fantasy 10, you generally just followed a pre-defined grid of abilities and attribute growth. Final Fantasy 13 did the same thing. It wasn't until very, very late in the game, higher level than most casual players would ever get, that you could start branching out and doing odd things like making Tidus a dedicated healer or tanking with Hope. So even in this, Final Fantasy fails this sort of litmus test of “choice,” which I believe to be an all-important aspect of any true roleplaying game. Indeed, if you're just following a pre-determined path of character growth, you're little better than games where you simply get more skilled as a player, allowing you to pass through more and more challenging sections of gameplay towards the end of the game.

Actually, what I tend to liken the Final Fantasy character growth system to is Mega Man games. In Mega Man, you proceed from level to level, defeating boss robots and taking their power, which takes the form of a special weapon that you can then use to proceed further in the game. In this way, it is very much like leveling a character up in Final Fantasy, gaining new spells to proceed through the plot until its conclusion. In Mega Man, you even have a choice of what powers you gain in which order (as well as when and where to use them, of course). You do not gain experience to make these powers more effective, of course, but you are, in a way, leveling Mega Man up and gaining new abilities—much in the same way as any mage in any fantasy game ever made. And yet, Mega Man is not an RPG.

So, what to do with Final Fantasy. The easiest solution is to make a completely separate classification for them. They are not RPGs by my definition (and probably many other people's as well—I get the feeling they just get a free ride into the genre these days, especially as they become less like games and more like movies in which you must occasionally press buttons to force them to proceed), but they are also not bad games (which is beside the point, but I feel like I have to say it again to avoid getting flamed). They simply need a separate classification—one that would actually be fairly populated when you see games like Eternal Sonata, Infinite Undiscovery, the various “Tales of” games, etc. I suppose we could simply call them JRPGs, but that still leaves “roleplaying game” in the equation. I'm not entirely sure I have an answer for what kind of games they are, and I think my stamina is just about spent for this particular blog—so I will leave it up to my plethora of readers (four, I think, last time I counted) to mull it over themselves. As for me, I think I'll go spend all the sexy experience points I just gained from writing this goliath introspection. Maybe I can get a skill to help me stop wasting time on blogs and start working on my thesis paper...

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Playing Amnesia: The Dark Descent. Allow me to recreate my gaming experience to date via stream of consciousness:

Walking down a hall, following a trail of weird-colored liquid. Not sure why I'm doing this. Seems like a bad idea.

Oh, look. A couple cabinets. This should help me save when the cosmic horrors start chasing me. Make sure they're both open so I can jump into one. No, wait, if I jump into one and close the door, the mind-bendingly horrible beast from being the stars might see one open, one closed, and get wise to my act. Close one, leave one open so I can jump in and close the door behind me. Will I be able to do that in time? Oh well.

OH SHIT A DOOR BLEW OPEN. ...why am I walking into the room with the blown open door? "It's just the wind" doesn't work in a game like this...

*walking into a dark room* HOLY SHIT THERE'S A DUDE THERE. ...no, wait, there's nothing here. Just a silhouette in the darkness. Oops, I better not stare. It might be sensitive. I'll bet it'll eat me if I sit here staring at it.

What's that sound? Why is the world getting bigger? No, wait, I'm just slumping to the ground crawling along like I just got off a bender. ...I'll bet a monster'll jump out of this next room while I can barely move. No? No. Oh well, keep moving.

Keep following the blood/goo stuff--SHIT, another door blew open...and it's really getting dark.

...is someone throwing plastic silverware into a blender up ahead?

Why is this door locked?

...I can't take this shit anymore *save, quit*

This may sound nonchalant, but imagine that with about 50% more "I'm going to pee my pants," about a dozen more whimpers and cries of terror, and you have the first HALF AN HOUR of Amnesia. Christ, I haven't even seen a monster yet...I'm playing it in BROAD DAYLIGHT and I can't play more than half an hour at a time. This game is masterfully crafted. I don't usually like horror, but I felt like I had to buy it for the experience. Good thing I only paid $10 for it...I doubt I'll be able to finish it, but my hat's off to Frictional Games for understanding the genre. I got through a good chunk of Silent Hill 2, and people say that that game is terrifying. And certainly games like Bioshock and (presumably) Dead Space just don't hold a candle to this. Sure, some of the monsters can be startling, and the splicers in Bioshock are certainly unsettling, but once you see them up close (and blow their heads off with a high-powered shotgun), the game looses some of its fear-factor. I remember being terrified early on in Bioshock...but after about an hour, it lost all of its ability to scare me...largely because even the Big Daddies weren't even a threat (even when I did choose to fight them)

But Amnesia...this is a game that has me on the ropes in 15 minutes. And I haven't seen anything truly life threatening yet. Indeed, that's why the game is terrifying. First of all, thanks to some brilliant advertising, you know that if you see a monster...you're already too late. You can't fight. All you can do is run and hide. And second of all, this game truly capitalizes on anticipation. Anyone who knows what they're getting into knows that this game is going to be terrifying...so their mind is doing all of the work. All Amnesia has to do is make some funny noises, keep the lights low, do weird things with the camera, and blow the doors open once in awhile. I am genuinely afraid that if I continue playing I will lose control of my bladder/bowels/both. I highly recommend this game to anyone who enjoys a good scare...and has steel innards.

As for me, I need to go play League of Legends to relax. Ciao.